Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 7

This week Rick and I discuss how I know a depressive episode is coming on, how I balance mental illness and big life events, and when mental illness was first introduced in our relationship. There’s also an unnecessarily expensive, carved mallard duck!

If for any reason the embed doesn’t work, you can watch the video here.

In the ep we talk about how you first present yourself and your mental illness or remarkable affliction, if applicable, in a new relationship. Something that has stayed with me for months is the third episode of Modern Love’s first season on Amazon Prime that stars Anne Hathaway. She does an incredibly moving job showing mental illness, and I cannot recommend enough that people watch that brief episode to have a better understanding or feel better understood. Both of those are invaluable.

Remember, if you have any questions you’d like us to address in Bailey and Rick Talk at You, feel free to reach out in the comments, on social media, or anonymously on the contact page.

Warmest,
Bailey

Featured Image Credit: Photo by DESIGNECOLOGIST on Unsplash


Wednesday posts cover something that’s top of mind for me that week and are written in a short period of time. This means that editing is not strong. While it’s not my best work, it is my best, unfiltered thought.


More on Bummed Out Bailey:

Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 1
Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 2
Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 3


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Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 6

This week Rick and I answer some questions about how the quarantine has affected our mental wellness, new ways to cope, and Rick’s application to the local music conservatory.

If for any reason the embed doesn’t work, you can watch the video here.

Remember, if you have any questions you’d like us to address in Bailey and Rick Talk at You, feel free to reach out in the comments, on social media, or anonymously on the contact page.

Warmest,
Bailey


Wednesday posts cover something that’s top of mind for me that week and are written in a short period of time. This means that editing is not strong. While it’s not my best work, it is my best, unfiltered thought.


More on Bummed Out Bailey:

Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 3
Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 4
Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 5


Do you love Bummed Out Bailey? Want to help keep it going? The best way you can support me is to share my blog with friends! Another way to support is on my Patreon where you’ll find exclusive content. Your word of mouth and contribution mean more to me than you’ll ever know!

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If you or someone you know needs help right now, please call the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.

Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 5

This week Rick and I answer some questions about how we handle me having an anxiety attack in public and whether Rick has ever experienced mental illness, himself. There’s also mention of haunted lightbulbs!

If for any reason the embed doesn’t work, you can watch the video here.

In the video we talk about how we handle situations in public regarding my anxiety, and I thought of another example of me removing myself from a situation where it was appropriate for Rick to stay. A few years ago my parents celebrated their 40th anniversary at a dinner in Florida and I started wiggin’. So, Rick stayed in the restaurant to celebrate and I went and laid in the back of the 15 pass my parents had rented for the trip in the parking lot. Lol.

Remember, if you have any questions you’d like us to address in Bailey and Rick Talk at You, feel free to reach out in the comments, on social media, or anonymously on the contact page.

Warmest,
Bailey


Wednesday posts cover something that’s top of mind for me that week and are written in a short period of time. This means that editing is not strong. While it’s not my best work, it is my best, unfiltered thought.


More on Bummed Out Bailey:

Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 2
Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 3
Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 4


Do you love Bummed Out Bailey? Want to help keep it going? The best way you can support me is to share my blog with friends! Another way to support is on my Patreon where you’ll find exclusive content. Your word of mouth and contribution mean more to me than you’ll ever know!

To subscribe to Bummed Out Bailey by email, scroll all the way down to the bottom of the website and enter your info into the form. I can also be found on InstagramFacebook, and Twitter.

If you or someone you know needs help right now, please call the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.

Mental Health: The Gold of One’s Spirit

Hello lovely people, I hope all are hanging in and that your loved ones are safe and sound. For those of you who are going through it medically, emotionally, mentally, I’m sending you condolences. This sucks.

Last week, on Monday, May 4th to be exact, I turned in my thesis,* something I’ve labored over for two years, officially marking the end of my grad school experience and the receipt of my Master of Fine Art for Creative Writing with a focus on Nonfiction. This is a huge deal for a lot of reasons, of course, a true pivotal moment. It means celebration! It means agent queries! It means champagne! It means job hunting! It means debt! Lol!

As I polished up my final 119 pages, one of the last things I did as a review was read it out loud to myself and shuffle phrasing as needed. It took 6+ hours. Six plus hours of revisiting terrible memories of not knowing whether my brother Alex would live or die and reliving the genesis of my own anxiety, the silent, unnamed war happening inside my nine year-old head.

All in one sitting.

Yesterday I had one of those days where I did my best but began feeling hopeless, again. I’m in the same outfit day in, day out, leaving the apartment every few days for fresh air and necessities, like toilet paper… or a curbside margarita.

Seriously, I only leave the house when I need to, and sometimes that’s not for material goods. With mental illness, sometimes I just have to leave my apartment/box in the air to let my eyes focus on something far away and breathe deeply (no people in sight, of course). My eyes are atrophying. They’re different. And, today, I felt a nonexistent cockroach crawling all over me. I had to get out.

Imaginary cockroaches aside, it’s been a big week emotionally, with both the seemingly never ending quarantine and the submission of my thesis all while knowing that my family would not be coming up to NYC to see me walk.

Cheryl Strayed is doing a special podcast series for COVID times called Sugar Calling, and in the latest episode she called Alice Walker. Yes, the Pulitzer Prize-winning Alice Walker. It seems her latest work is a collection of poems, one of which she read aloud to Cheryl and listeners. It moved me, and I frantically wrote down an excerpt to share:

The Long Road Home

I am beginning to comprehend
the mystery
of the gift of suffering.
It is true as some
have said
that it is a crucible
in which the gold of one’s spirit
is rendered
and shines.

Alice Walker

So, whatever is tempering the gold of your spirit, whatever your crucible is, if you’re under fire right now, hold fast. According to Alice Walker, eventually you’ll shine.

Warmest,
Bailey

*Due to its length and subject matter, I will be sharing my thesis on Patreon.


Wednesday posts cover something that’s top of mind for me that week and are written in a short period of time. This means that editing is not strong. While it’s not my best work, it is my best, unfiltered thought.


More on Bummed Out Bailey:
Mental Health: How to Perk up When you Feel Like You’ve Been Percocet’d
Mental Health: The Social Toll of Invisible Illness
Mental Health: A Poem to Read at Ho…me [ho-uhm]


The best way you can support me is to share my blog with friends! Another way to support is on my Patreon where you’ll find exclusive content. Your word of mouth and contribution mean more to me than you’ll ever know!

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If you or someone you know needs help right now, please call the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.

Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 4

Looks like we made it * Shania voice * I’ve turned in my thesis, and turned into… a vlogger!

This week Rick and I answer some questions about how I presented/how Rick perceived my mental illness while we were dating. There’s also mention of Jerry Springer’s hit show “Baggage!”

Unfortunately the sound is a little wonky, but we’ll try to do better next week! Remember, we have no idea what we’re doing.

If for any reason the embed doesn’t work, you can watch the video here.

Remember, if you have any questions you’d like us to address in Bailey and Rick Talk at You, feel free to reach out in the comments, on social media, or anonymously on the contact page.

Warmest,
Bailey

P.S. The post I mention about this past summer is here.


Wednesday posts cover something that’s top of mind for me that week and are written in a short period of time. This means that editing is not strong. While it’s not my best work, it is my best, unfiltered thought.


More on Bummed Out Bailey:

Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 1
Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 2
Mental Health: Bailey and Rick Talk at You: Episode 3


Do you love Bummed Out Bailey? Want to help keep it going? The best way you can support me is to share my blog with friends! Another way to support is on my Patreon where you’ll find exclusive content. Your word of mouth and contribution mean more to me than you’ll ever know!

To subscribe to Bummed Out Bailey by email, scroll all the way down to the bottom of the website and enter your info into the form. I can also be found on InstagramFacebook, and Twitter.

If you or someone you know needs help right now, please call the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.